Selasa-22maret2011 ( is written in word, embeded in reality)

I even also progressively understand to regard of life. Life about how to take a fancy to opposite gender. Have three year hide feeling which still not to be expressed. Fair to middling to learn how feeling devoted. Every day always see illusory world of her through social network which she have. I wish for to say “hi…?”, but always fail. Likely see her grow and round into woman intellectually bright make me progressively wish making her a big secret in life. Although physically our condition and so near by. But feeling her and me so far as sky and ground. Like angel and devil. Unique, really unique. Our house which apart only some metre but our heart feel by tens kilometer. We first within call, but progressively increasing age her and year make us so far. Only passing illusiory world that’s I can see it. I can feel its attendance. Expectation only for the god. So that the god will retouch my life plot by making her a better struggle friend for life. To miss MS, here with I express to make you a glamor in is black of mind non to turn white life her. Cause is downright is I daren’t to express feeling cause me is devil and you is angel. Surely the god will fulminate if having a more relation. But I continue to learn to eliminate black side at myself to be me also become to turn white and get you. But that only day dream isn’t real fact. Let life rhythm remain to tell a story like this, i am as admirer and you as which admirer of me. and I start to learn to discharge you from the so small heart room to start a life where social environment require me. where poorness and hunger infecting this country is more important than a statement of unsuccessful feeling. stupidity of me is to take a fancy to woman like you which exactly you not yet of course loved me. hopefully kindliness of the god can change that all. amen.